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TAPPING THE VEIN
TAPPING THE VEIN LYRICS Undone (1999)
1. Beautiful Please, I Don't Know What You're Saying It All Sounds Like Mud To Me There's A Man Here I've Seen His Face He's Sure I'll Recognize Him And He's Breathing All His Hate On Me He Binds My Wrists And He Throws Me Down And I Can't See Wake Me I Hope I'm Dreaming I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Wake Me. There Must Be Some Mistake No, I Don't Hear What I'm Hearing Fear You Are My New Best Friend Cause These Wicked Boys Brought Their Pieces And Their Itchy Fingers And The Panic Crawls Into My Throat Cause I Turn My Head And They're Looking At Me. And I Can't Breathe Save Me I Think I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake And I Can't Scream I Can't Scream I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake Save Me Look, I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake 2. Everything They Tell Me I Have To Get Out Of Bed They Tell Me I Have To Keep Up My Strength I've Got To Eat Something I'm Hoping That The Taste Will Kill Me I Have Agonized To Find A Different Way And There Is No Soothing For The Boiling Of My Skin There Is No Comfort Here So What If I'm Standing Here? I Still Hurt From My Hair To My Feet I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything They Tell Me I Have To Get Up And Dressed They Tell Me I Have To Start Getting Out I've Got To Keep Busy Maybe Exhertion Will Do Me In I Have Been Defiled A Thousand Different Ways There Is No Pressure For The Hemorraging There Is No Healing Me So What If I'm Walking Now? I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything It Rips Me From My Dreams I Swear I Hear Your Voice I Run From Room To Room To Find You So What If I'm Walking Now? I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe I Know This Is Nothing Nothing To Me This Is Everything 3. Bleed My Eyes Are Burning Through Their Lids I Can't Remember When I've Closed Them I Think Of Searing Off My Lips So I Can't Scream Your Name I Know You See That I Am Just A Shell Of Me How Is It So Easy For You To Watch Me Bleed? This Sucking Wound Is Eating Through My Chest I Ache For You. I Will Linger Here At Best I've Got A Hole Right Here I Think The Sun Was Out Today I Can't Remember When I've Felt It I Keep Waking Up To Waste Away In This Empty Room And I Cannot Believe The One That You Would Reach For In Your Sleep Is Now Writhing At Your Feet And You Just Let Me Bleed This Sucking Wound Is Eating Through My Chest I Ache For You This Sucking Wound Is Bleeding Me 4. Undone I Feel Like I'm Going To Break Open Wide I Can't Stop The Walls From Burning, Swelling My Wide Eyes The Fear That I'm Fearing Now Is Crippling Me Leaving Me Broken, Shivering Here On My Knees I Feel Like I'm Ready To Crack From Head To Heel Knowing I'll Never Reach All The Things That I Need To Feel And With The Way That It's Haunting Me And The Depth That It Runs I Am Amazed That It Took Me This Long To Come Undone It's Raining On Me Now The Rain It Won't Stop It's Raining On Me The Rain It Won't Stop It Won't Stop It Won't Stop It Won't Stop 5. The River I'm Going To The River And There I'm Going To Swim Until I Sink. I've Been Drowning Here Forever. So, It Won't Make A Difference To Me. Don't You See What The Buzz Is? Look At Me. I Am Nothing But A Need To Reach You. If I Don't Go To The River I'm Going To Crawl Into A Hole And Fill Me In. This Thing Will Suffocate Me. So, You See, The Only Difference Is When. I Don't Know What The Trick Is. Look At Me. I Am Nothing But A Need To Reach You. I've Waited So Long That I Can Smell The Rotting Of My Brain And I'm Shaking And I'm Stammering And Tasting The Sting Of My Failure. Look At Me. I Am Nothing But A Need To Reach You. Look At Me I Am Nothing But A Need, This Need. Everyday I See Rage In The Mirror. It's Dripping From Me; Throbbing Through Me. I Can't Be Any Clearer And I Can See It Right There. It's On My Wall And It's Frightening Me. 6. Crushing It's Crushing Every Bone Feeding My Lonliness I Wish I Had A Rope From This Hole I Know I Don't Are You All Alone, Running Like Me? A Stunning Blow To The Head A Weight On My Lungs Has Me Gasping, Fighting For Breath Swallowing My Tongue Are You All Alone, Running Like Me? I Am Too Tired To Give Up And I Am Too Weak To Fail I'm Thrashing And Sobbing And Planning My Sleep You Won't Wake Me When Every Day Is The Same You See I'm Running I've Got To Hurry Up And I Am Too Sick To Stand Up My Strength For This World Is Gone I'm Stumbling I'm Tripping My Face In The Dirt You Won't Save Me When Every Day Here Is The Same Are You All Alone Running Like Me?
Butterfly (1999 EP)
1. Butterfly What Am I? I Wish I Was A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly Until It Was My Time To Die It's Creeping In Again I Know What I Really Am No More Pretty, Purple, Peaceful Butterfly Simple Life If I Were A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly Until It Was My Time To Die Its Creeping In Again I Know What I Really Am No More Pretty, Purple, Peaceful Butterfly Come See The Blood That's In My Bed Come Hear The Things That Nobody Talks About Shut Up You Mouth Shame On You Shame On Me Look At Me I Wish I Was A Honey Bee Anything, Anything Other Than The Things I Have Been I Slip Out Of My Skin So I Don't Have To Do It Again But Just A Passing Thought And Your Filth Is Seeping In Come Scrub My Hands They Won't Come Clean Come Sit With Me While The Walls Press In On Me Shut Off That Light Shame On You. Shame On Me. 2. Broken See? The Tide Is Turning Now And I'm Fading, Fading I Have No Excuses Anymore This Is Where I Wanted To Be You've Twisted Me Out From The Inside And You've Hung Me In The Wind You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall I'm Helpless As You Move Away I Am Empty, Aimless I Have No Illusions Anymore They Just Ran Right Out Of Me And Every Day I'll Fight Not To Miss You Every Day I'll Lose You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall So Just Leave Me Here With My Tortured Heart Or Stay And Watch As I Cut It Out You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall I Don't Know Really, Really What You Want From Me I Don't Know What You Really Want From Me But You Will Be My Downfall 3. Inside Lately, I Swear There's Something Crawling On My Skin. An Indication Of The Shape I'm In. Totally Aware Of Where I Am And How Far Down. Somebody Has Got To Come And Pull Me Out. Mother, Will You Help Me Make It Go Away? Mother, Will You Help Me Make It All Right? Maybe I Should Try And Go The Other Way I Don't Think It's Gonna Help Me Anyway. Mother, Will You Help Me Make It Go Away? Mother, Will You Help Me Make It All Right? Mother, Will You Take Me Back Inside? Take Me Back Inside. Inside Of Me. Lately, I Fear There's Something Eating Me Alive. It's Getting Ever Difficult For Me To Hide. I Don't Remember Ever Asking Anything From You. Too Bad The Thing I Really Need You Cannot Do. Mother, Will You Help Me Make It Go Away? Mother, Will You Help Me Make It All Right? Mother, Will You Take Me Back Inside? Take Me Back Inside. Inside. Inside. Take Me Back Inside. 4. Falling In I Realize This Is One Man's Sin But I Can't Deny That You're Pulling Me In. You Found A Way To Get Inside My Head. And, Yes, I'm Gonna Know Better Than To Sleep With You But At The Same Time I Got This Need To Feel You. Let Me Put My Hands All Over You. I Feel I'm Falling In. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intent To. I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too. And You've No Idea What I'd Do To You. Do You? Do You? Well, I Do. Come Lie With Me And Then Let Me Touch You For Hours On And Steal A Little Piece Of Happiness. And, Yes, I Ought To Know Better And I Thought It Through But I Can't Shake The Need To Please You. Tell Me What You Need I'll Give It To You. I Feel I'm Falling In. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To. I Just Wanna Know Do You Feel It, Too. Do You Wanna Know What I'd Do To You? Do You? Do You? Well, Sure You Do. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To. I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too. And You've No Idea What I'd Do To Do To You? Do You? Do You? Didn't Mean To Offend You I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel It, Too. I Wanna Know Do You Want Me, Too. Now Do You? Do You? Well, Maybe You Do. 5. Numb Complicate Me Every Inch Of Me You Suck Me In Only To Spit Me Out Pick Your Poison Cause You Know I'll Swallow All Of It Willingly I'd Pry My Eyes Out I'd Pry Them Out For You I Can't Stand Here Without Trembling I Try To Speak But I'm Choking At The Mouth You Annihilate Me Just Being There You Violated All Of Me And I'd Pry My Eyes Out I'd Pry Them Out For You I Am In A State Of Numb I Cannot Breathe If You Will Not Breathe With Me I Am In A State Of Numb I Cannot Feel If I Cannot Feel You I'd Pry My Eyes Out I'd Pry Them Out For You I Am In A State Of Numb I Cannot Feel If I Cannot Feel You I Am In A State Of Numb I Cannot Breathe If You Will Not Breathe With Me I Am In A State Of Numb I Cannot Be Alive Here Without Remembering You Can You Feel Me?
The Damage (2002)
1. The Ledge I am Tired I am Drained I don't Sleep for days Immersed in the Drama Strapped to your Stage I don't want to be Just Another lover on a Ledge I can't give you your Life I can't give you my Sympathy Off your knees Release Me I'm Whole Again I want to Fly I want to Run I want to Hide from you Then I want to Crawl back and Lie down And Hold on to you I don't want to be Just Another Lover on a Ledge I don't want to be Just Another Lover on the Edge I can't give you my Life I can't give you the Rest of me Off your knees Release Me I'm Whole Again 2. Butterfly What Am I? I Wish I Was A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly Until It Was My Time To Die It's Creeping In Again I Know What I Really Am No More Pretty, Purple, Peaceful Butterfly Simple Life If I Were A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly Until It Was My Time To Die Its Creeping In Again I Know What I Really Am No More Pretty, Purple, Peaceful Butterfly Come See The Blood That's In My Bed Come Hear The Things That Nobody Talks About Shut Up You Mouth Shame On You Shame On Me Look At Me I Wish I Was A Honey Bee Anything, Anything Other Than The Things I Have Been I Slip Out Of My Skin So I Don't Have To Do It Again But Just A Passing Thought And Your Filth Is Seeping In Come Scrub My Hands They Won't Come Clean Come Sit With Me While The Walls Press In On Me Shut Off That Light Shame On You. Shame On Me. 3. Sugar Falls What am I doing here? What am I waiting for? Will somebody fall from Heaven And join me on the floor? Why am I holding Out, Pretending it might make sense? I will not understand this any better then. If Sugar Falls all over me: If Sugar Falls then we'll see So, I'll wait, as I always wait, as I always wish for something more What if I try escaping hoping for some repair and then what if all of this Heartache follows to find me there? 4. Beautiful Please, I Don't Know What You're Saying It All Sounds Like Mud To Me There's A Man Here I've Seen His Face He's Sure I'll Recognize Him And He's Breathing All His Hate On Me He Binds My Wrists And He Throws Me Down And I Can't See Wake Me I Hope I'm Dreaming I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Wake Me. There Must Be Some Mistake No, I Don't Hear What I'm Hearing Fear You Are My New Best Friend Cause These Wicked Boys Brought Their Pieces And Their Itchy Fingers And The Panic Crawls Into My Throat Cause I Turn My Head And They're Looking At Me. And I Can't Breathe Save Me I Think I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake And I Can't Scream I Can't Scream I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake Save Me Look, I'm Bleeding I Am Beautiful I'm Beautiful Save Me There Must Be Some Mistake 5. Again I am wearing this weight Again It cuts like it did then It's consuming all my thoughts and swallowing me Again And what you see is what's left of me but I'm here I didn't think I'd scare very easily but I fear this thing It is wearing me out and thin Paralyzing me Again It was vicious all the way here I am barely alive I wish you love With anyone else but me I wish you love with anyone And all I can do I will do for you If I'm here I promise you I'll remember you While I'm here I wish you love Again I am surrendering me Surrendering mine 6. The Damage Hiding here, Hoping this will finally give me peace Pretty please Readying, practicing the damage on my cheek I'm not about to crumble I'm not about to cave I'm not about to paint you a picture So you'll see me You don't bleed like I do You don't feel what I do You don't live in this awful place You don't know the darkness like I do With any luck, I've allowed for all the time I'll need Pretty please Deep enough, at least as far as I can feel I'm not about to fumble I'm not about to fail I'm not about to scream bloody murder So you'll Hear Me You don't know the darkness but I do 7. Fingertips Although it's warm outside I feel cold inside my skin I really could have used fair warning Then maybe I'd survive this hell I'm in This is easy This is easier If I could heal myself Where would I begin? I really wish I'd had a shoulder I'd try and climb from this hole I'm in This is easy This is easier Locked in all alone here Fate is in my fingertips There isn't anyone that can hold me here Do you think this is courage? Does this make me brave? It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made This is easy T this is easier for me Than to pretend that this will ever get easier for me Do you think this is Selfish? Does this make me crazed? It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made This will never get easy I don't think so 8. Broken See? The Tide Is Turning Now And I'm Fading, Fading I Have No Excuses Anymore This Is Where I Wanted To Be You've Twisted Me Out From The Inside And You've Hung Me In The Wind You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall I'm Helpless As You Move Away I Am Empty, Aimless I Have No Illusions Anymore They Just Ran Right Out Of Me And Every Day I'll Fight Not To Miss You Every Day I'll Lose You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall So Just Leave Me Here With My Tortured Heart Or Stay And Watch As I Cut It Out You Are My Weakness You May Be My Downfall I Don't Know Really, Really What You Want From Me I Don't Know What You Really Want From Me But You Will Be My Downfall 9. Hurricane I will never tell you I'd rather sew up my mouth I'd choke sooner than ever say it out loud Figure it out I still wish you were here I am breaking down from breaking in Give me the wings to fly Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane? It's impossible for what's left of this to be saved And it's sinking in that my being here's a mistake Erase Forget I was here Don't you see me trying? I'm slit now I'm sliding Floating, flying I'm ready for my fade I will wait for you here because you are all I know 10. Everything They Tell Me I Have To Get Out Of Bed They Tell Me I Have To Keep Up My Strength I've Got To Eat Something I'm Hoping That The Taste Will Kill Me I Have Agonized To Find A Different Way And There Is No Soothing For The Boiling Of My Skin There Is No Comfort Here So What If I'm Standing Here? I Still Hurt From My Hair To My Feet I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything They Tell Me I Have To Get Up And Dressed They Tell Me I Have To Start Getting Out I've Got To Keep Busy Maybe Exhertion Will Do Me In I Have Been Defiled A Thousand Different Ways There Is No Pressure For The Hemorraging There Is No Healing Me So What If I'm Walking Now? I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything It Rips Me From My Dreams I Swear I Hear Your Voice I Run From Room To Room To Find You So What If I'm Walking Now? I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe I Know This Is Nothing Nothing To Me This Is Everything 11. Falling In I Realize This Is One Man's Sin But I Can't Deny That You're Pulling Me In. You Found A Way To Get Inside My Head. And, Yes, I'm Gonna Know Better Than To Sleep With You But At The Same Time I Got This Need To Feel You. Let Me Put My Hands All Over You. I Feel I'm Falling In. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intent To. I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too. And You've No Idea What I'd Do To You. Do You? Do You? Well, I Do. Come Lie With Me And Then Let Me Touch You For Hours On And Steal A Little Piece Of Happiness. And, Yes, I Ought To Know Better And I Thought It Through But I Can't Shake The Need To Please You. Tell Me What You Need I'll Give It To You. I Feel I'm Falling In. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To. I Just Wanna Know Do You Feel It, Too. Do You Wanna Know What I'd Do To You? Do You? Do You? Well, Sure You Do. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To. I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too. And You've No Idea What I'd Do To Do To You? Do You? Do You? Didn't Mean To Offend You I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel It, Too. I Wanna Know Do You Want Me, Too. Now Do You ? Do You? Well, Maybe You Do.
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